so the week from hell is over and it’s the weekend. last night i couldnt even make it to midnight and then got up at 9 am. I have absolutly nothing to do but i also dont want to do anything but i also dont feel like sitting around and watching tv and movies. ya weird. i really need to start saving monies again so i dont wanna go out and spend any. I am also starting to feel better. think i am starting to kick this cold’s ass! i think i should start a book maybe. or maybe just embrace this feeling of nothingness because i have a feeling that in a year life will be hectic.

i really wanna make fresh spring rolls. maybe i can convience someone to take me and buy me groceries at The Bay. Yes! I said the Bay! they have a good asian section at grocery store there. i dont think i will wear the bay jacket there though!!

ok gonna do some convincing…

I have been the last one in the office in my "pod" for an hour now… it feels like it could be 9 pm on a Friday night in here. I was worked to the bone right up to the last minute on a Friday. And what now? Why am I still here? Just waiting for my ride to get off the phone so we can go home!

Well i shouldn’t say that because it is not over and far from you consider what i have been through already this week. Monday-fucking shitty work day/stress from parents, Tuesday – parent stress/sickness ensuing, Today: shitty sickness + forcing myself to go to work+ very stressful work morning-being assigned to lawyers suddenly, crazy rush of work, stupid girl at work sending me bitchy emails about things i fucked up on on Monday = leaving work sick at noon and spending the rest of my dad in bed watching Val being drugged on 90210 on my new gigantic tv. I always cried like 5 times at work this morning and actually cried one time in a boardroom to my dad. Then i cried again to my mom when i got home. I hate that when you are sick you feel like crying. Being sick plus stress made me not be able to cope. It would have been a shitty day anyways but being sick and never wanting to be at work at the first place made me crazy emotional, stressed. I am just scared that the rest of the work week is going to be stressful as i am working for different lawyers each day. It’s hard working for different lawyers, or working for a lawyer for a day or whatever when you are just use to never having working and spending the day searching for little things to do. and then this week sucks because people are either sick or on sunny vacations. this has been a shitty week. I guess on top of it all i am trying to get my Grad school application in and that has made me very stressed as well.
I can’t wait until next week or february mid month or chicago in may or summer in general.

time to finish my application…

I feel a bit refreshed after that lunch. Went for fries instead of onion rings. Then I came back to my area and my co-workers were looking at some strange diseases website. This 20 year old model had to have both hands and feet removed due to a UTI! Oh goodness! If that doesn’t scare you into seeing a dr…..*le sigh*

So tired and so hungry that all I am dreaming about right now is A&W with onion rings and a root beer. T-minus 50 mins to go. I will not give in and take a break early-that only makes the day go by slower and I was right today feels as slow as all the previous days of the week combined.

We went to RDYMX last night. The music was good at first and then after everyone was dancing they started playing techno and crazy remixs. It was awful! I can’t dance to that. By 12:30 I wanted to go home and turns out I should have called home for a ride. But it was fine staying a bit and then joining everyone at the pizza joint afterwards. Got home before 2. Joel came and picked me up. He was looking v. cute. I think we had a good time. I was playing the part of dressing up and looking nice and then acting friendly-like friends only ish. I think that is a good plan. Maybe he’ll be like oh shes so nice and pretty and smart and cool and I think we have matured since our first attempt this summer, let’s give this a go. Or not. I am indifferent. Haha.

I am excited for tonight! Jorin and I have our first non-group date- but we are hanging out with others-just not others we usually hang out together with. Anyways it will be fun. She is so funny. Her message from last night that I got this morning really put a smile on my face. I will post it later. Anyways I will take lots ofpics tonight. We are going to a PJ party in our onsies!

Wish me luck to get through until then. Definitely nap time post work!

i am such a lazy bum today. i think more tired than hungover. last night we went to Kayli’s house in lockport aka the country, with the idea to go tobogganing-drunkenly was added on later-which meant us sleeping over there. Anyways i was thirsty and pounded back those beers, we tried sledding but the snow was soo deep we could barely move. There was construction around there so we ended up climbing this huge mountain of frozen rocks of dirt and snow-where at the top you could actually see downtown in the distance. We also saw the cops pulling someone over-and as soon as we saw cops we hid in the crevasses of the rocks. it was fun. then we watched footage of Ryan Seacrest trying to hi-five the blind guy on american idol over and over and in slow-mo. What an idiot! anyways-stayed up late-didnt have the best sleep so i have been real lazy today- i did clean up my room a bit though-hung up clothes etc. but i basically watched gilmore girls……sooo goood…. mouse and i are cuddling right now. i am trying to decide if i should bite the bullet and just shower sooner than later. bah i hate sunday nights…but hopefully i will actually sleep tonight… prolly go to bed real early….blah already dont want to go to work tomorrow…..

in lighter topics…i am not sure when i should call X -it’s been over a week since i made the decision and put it into action and i think that i am happy with my choice. i really am not sure if i actually am a relationship person-though i know if i met the right person that it would work. i just dont want to be in a relationship for the sake of being in one-because i cant force myself to do that if that person is not super amazingly perfect for me and X wasn’t- we really didnt have much in common and that is important for me. anyways i feel bad because he is sooo nice and i do want to hang out-but not anytime soon and he does have some of my things-which i would like back…like my leonard cohen dvd (which we never watched)…my fav of all time… i just think its too soon to talk-but i dont want to be rude and i hope that he knows he can call me if he wants to. bah!

in other boy news, though i hate talking about boys on my blog and never want to write about my “boy troubles” exclusively like i have in the past.
i texted joel on friday night and i think we are going to hang out soon. i am not expecting or planning anything but just want to see how it is with him after knowing what i know now….or after other experiences with other people…something along those lines.
also, there might be someone i am interested in asking on a date. he is a vegan and that gives him major points in my books- he also has a mustache-which i think is hot-to sum it up- the little i know about him now makes me want to know more…….

wanna read my old blog???

My tummy hurts from eating that sandwich too fast and being too lazy/messy to take out the onions. So I went to an information secession for the masters program that I am applying to at lunch today. It made me very anxious. I found out that since it is only the first year that they are only accepting 10 people! 10! Yikes! I guess I didn’t realize it was this competitive, or perhaps I got too cocky while writing my application and look back at all of my accomplishments. Opps! Bad idea! I mean, what happens, happens. I’ll deal either way. But the courses look so interesting and it’s what I really want to do and I have never been this sure about anything before, well I guess that is not saying much since I am indecisive, or maybe that says a lot! Anyways, I really have no clue to what is going to happen…all I can do at this point is prey, I mean apply. Serious, I am totally the perfect candidate for this program! I just kept thinking that if we were in Montreal right now that this room of people would look soooo different! I mean I felt like one of the only people in the room that you could get a sense of their personality by their mere appearance, everyone else look like joe shmo…I mean come on guys this is for a masters in cultural studies!! Ha ha…. Yuck I think the ghost of my sandwich is not haunting me with its smell from the garbage can. Peering into the can I can see its remains…..

So I have no clue what I am doing this weekend! I mean all I want to do is sleep. It’s still bloody cold out, but is suppose to start warming up in the next 24 hrs… I want to make things this weekend…..ghetto fix up my sewing machine…aka stick a pencil in a hole in the top to put the spool of thread on since the thing it rested on before broke off…. I want to try to make a cloth wallet perhaps….maybe some more sock monkeys! Ha in all truth I will probably get lazy and do nothing….. well I do have to finish this application this weekend-or a final draft at least. Ok time to try to find work….